I have been meaning to write…but the last 3 weeks have been like a rollar coaster of emotions. When Trenton passed, I was heart-broken and relieved at the same time…he was so ill and needed reprieve from his suffering. I could not cry very much the first week…I believe that I was still in shock over him being gone. The second week brought different emotions: anger, emptiness, and peace. The way the tumor took things away day by day…it just was not right for a child to have to feel this way…anger. I wanted to be with Trenton…and went through some feelings of loniness and dispair…emptiness. Then I would pray and ask God and the Holy Spirit to help me…to comfort me…and then peace would come. This past week, I have been reminding myself that Trenton was very sick and that we did everything medically possible to cure and comfort him. Jesus gave him the ultimate comfort and peace…taking him to a place we can only dream about…and hopefully someday see for ourselves. I am realizing the finality of not being able to touch, talk to, or feel Trenton physically…this is the current cause of my pain. Trenton is not the only child to go through this journey…there is Robbie, Justis, Cameron, Leah, and so many others that have passed and even endure cancer daily…we need a cure…we need to pray for these families…we need to support all cancer research!!
I have been reading a great book that was given to me by a good friend, Sue Postin. It is called “Next Door Savior” by Max Lucado. It has given me a clearer perspective on the sacrifice that Jesus made for me…what God wants from me…and how I should be living for Him. I would recommend this book for everyone to read.
My Forever Child
by Susan Mosquera
You are a Precious Child
Created out of love,
a blessing from above.
I’ve adored you from the start,
and your little footprints touched my heart.
A single teardrop represents
the millions I have cried.
My life never the same since you died.
I wish you could have stayed longer with me.
I’d watch you grow into all you could be.
Although we are apart,
You are always in my heart.
I dream of a joyful time when
we will be reunited once again.
Thoughts of you make me smile.
You will always be My Forever Child.
Donna[newline]
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