End of Year Blues…

[thumb:431:l]Many of you probably don’t know this, but I am a big blues fan. Most people may think that the blues is a music genre that is all about depressing things. If you really listen, it is actually the opposite. I digress sorry… Actually, I just wanted to ask everyone for understanding if we seem a little down lately. Coming into the holiday season is going to be challenging to say the least. This is the first holiday season without our gorgeous son. I am going to just share some of the things that bother me coming into this time, this is my therapy so bare with me please. It bothers me that the house got really quite when Trent left us. No hustle and bustle between Ana and him anymore. No more reactions on holidays from Trent. I remember him coming into the front room where the presents were and going AWWWW. I remember watching him be the little engineer on his toys. It bothers me that I could not play ball with him in the yard just one more time, and he did ask me if we could do that again about a month before he passed. What could I say but… “You bet we can!” Remembering the good and bad times we shared together, I would tolerate him being a bad kid all the time just to be able to hold him one more time or for him to give me the thumbs up because he was doing ok, even though we knew he wasn’t. It bothers me that he can not go to the water park with us again this year, and I can take him down the water slide on the tube. We are heading there to meet another family who lost there son, Robbie.. you may remember in pictures with Trent from last December. Anyway… There are still alot of things to be thankful for this year. Ariana making the Honor Roll again… Ana has been improving meet after meet with her Gymnastics routines. We were blessed to receive our latest stupid dog Lilah…hehe I had to Donna sorry! So there are great things happening around us all the time, but I still miss him so much! As to be expected right? Thank yous to everyone for the periodic cards and messages/comments you send us, we do read them…all of them, even if we do not respond to them. This Christmas is going to be a hard one emotionally and otherwise because of all the happenings at Ford lately too, but I think we are going to make it. Just please be patient with us sometimes because we are all a work in progress, and singin the blues…
Clint