I know it has been awhile since I have written. When I think about posting…the loss of Trenton becomes more real to me…and I get this awesome rush of heartache. Around this time last year, we were receiving news that Trenton not only had tumor growth, but also an additional tumor in the right front ventricle. I remember crying so hard after the call from Nurse Kelly…thinking “How much longer does he have?”. It all went so fast…too fast.
We have read that this tumor is diagnosed in a miminal amount of children each year. Yet when I view the websites of other children that have links to even more childrens’ websites….I feel like that statistic MUST be wrong. I see their beautiful, young faces and my heart just hurts…one after another, they pass on. Looking deep into their eyes on the screen, I tell them they are Angels and say I am sorry for what they had to experience. Some things in life I just cannot accept…the death of a child is NOT natural!!!
Are we doing OK? Yes and No….time goes on and we live day to day. I like going to work – it takes my mind off losing Trenton…losing his future…losing all of those times that I had longed to share with him…an unfinished life.
I love Ariana – she was sent to rescue me. She is having some issues right now (since Xmas). Ariana has started to see a social worker…who I believe will help her to open up. Ariana is doing GREAT in school – just made the A honor roll…I am so proud of her!!!
Thank you to those who have called, emailed, and sent cards…letting us know that they have not forgotten Trenton or us. If you have not heard back from us, I am so sorry…we walk around like zombies still sometimes and we do not intentionally not get back with you. We have been so blessed with a large group of friends and family helping us through this…just know that we really do love you all!!!
Donna (Trenton’s Mommy)
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